You Lift Me Up

Sounds like the title of a Westlife song, but I think proper thanks should go to 3 people who helped me up recently when I was in my down mood.

Thanks firstly to my mom, who has always been there for me in the most surprising of times. Its good to know that despite the distance between us, you always seem near enough to watch over me. You are a friend as well as a mother to me, and I honestly believe that I'll never know anybody else in this lifetime who can achieve a better standard of parenting than you have.

The other two thanks go out to B and D. Thanks B for being my oldest friend, for being my shrink when my nuts and screws start to get a little loose, and for looking out for me and making me into a better person in your own "unique" way. I say "unique" coz your methods sometimes seem strange...

And finally D. Although we lost contact for a few years. It's good to know and have that feeling that we can just pick up where we left off without feeling that we've grown apart. In fact, I feel that we've grown closer ever since talking to each other on msn again! I thank you for being the wonderful friend that you are, for your listening ear and your concern made me realise how blessed I am to have you in my life.

Seems like a very soppy moment for me... think I'll grab a tissue now.

WTF?

Somehow i forgot to turn off my msn one night... Some strange garbled talk appeared on my screen when i went to check it later. (It wasn't me!)

Ahem... here it goes...Edited (in blue) for your viewing pleasure!
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THE AMAZING MAD MONOLOGUE OF B. (aka. Trash)

B says:
poop (thats trash talk. Unsure of the translation to the English language. Most prob a sign of greeting)

B says:
oei (I'm AFK)

B just sent you a nudge. (I'm still AFK)

B says:
sleeping? (nope)

B says:
socialising? (wrong again)

B says:
sumone at ur hse visiting u? (3 strikes, you're out!)

B says:
yoohooo (still AFK)

B says:
i wanna gossip..... (so do I. Always happy to oblige except that I was AFK)

B says:
poo.... (Again, another piece of the trash language. One might suspect that it is a call for attention. Like how a hatchling calls for momma bird's attention when it's hungry)

B says:
haiz, must be some hot girl over at ur hse and u totally engrossed in it huh... (I wish...)

B says:
well... im perfectly good at monologing by myself! (After reading this once through, I totally agree with you)

B says:
i mean like, i COULD roleplay u and pretend to talk to u by myself!?!?! (From the caps in "COULD", as well as the "?!?!?!" at the end, I take it that you don't really want to roleplay me. Possibly coz it might drive you insane)

B says:
(lols this is just such good material for u to paste on ur blog, maybe u could name it the madness of B) (Your wish is my command... Name has been changed to protect the identity)

B says:
(hahah nvm sorrie im high, just blabbering on, u noe how i get after encounters with "C" ...)

Of course I do, you're cold one moment and hot the next. If u don't get a regular dosage of your "vitamin C". You'll be down in the dumps. Once you've taken it, you're on Cloud 9.

To the other readers, this part of the conversation may sound somewhat illegal, but let me clear your doubts and get it in the open that I am NOT pushing drugs to "B", ok? "C" is a girl, and her name has been edited to protect her identity, the identity of "B"... as well as my health.

B says:
(she is like bonus xp to me, like wyverns all tied up ready to be coup de graded for freee xp, like a rust monster chasing a metal clad paladin, like... *voice trails away....* nitey nite!)

(All those D&D analogies. Clearly he's still high... i wonder what happened?)
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Hope you enjoyed reading it.

On an end note, I leave you with this D&D joke that I heard today:
"Your mom's so fat, that when she casts "Hold Person", she just has to sit."

Thank you =p

Banging My Head In

It's one of those days. Some of my close friends may have seen me in this state. Its a day where I feel that I'm mentally unstable. Where I hardly talk and have hints of a depressed look on my face. Part of me feels like a recluse... not wanting to interact with people and totally avoiding the possiblity of getting to know new people. The other part of me is destructive... Where I just start to get feelings of anger and feel the need to lash out and just trash something, or someone...

Most of the time there is usually a problem or reason behind me feeling this way. But more often than not I am unable to identify it. But when it starts to happen, the reclusive part of my mood surfaces first. The destructive part usually surfaces later...

Heh... I actually thought I'd end up talking more about this, but I'm just not in the mood today to do so...

Did I Ever Mention That I Like Dance Scenes?

In movies where the male and female lead are on the dance floor in the middle of a party, doing a fantasticly choreographed number with other dancers. Hmm... actually, that applies to Bollywood films as well... but they lack a certain "coolness" factor. Good entertainment though. Here are some examples:

The party scene from "Knight's Tale", with Heath Ledger and Shannyn Sossamon.



But here's a better example, more professional dancers and higher on the hawtness factor. We have Channing Tatum and Jenna Dewan in "Step Up"



And guess what! It's not complete without a Bollywood example. And here it is!



Aishwarya Rai is pretty as ever. Note the indian dance rule: "Frequent changing of clothing in the middle of the dance" applies here. She has 4 different outfits throughout the video! Imagine that!

Okay okay... that last video was just to disturb you. But u did enjoy them right?

Warhammer Online Trailer Clip

The brotherhood has plans to invade the Warhammer World when this MMORPG comes up. Hopefully we'll all have the time. Hopefully I can keep a rein on my sanity and maintain my social life this time.

But come on, you have to admit that dark elf women in scantily clad leather outfits are hawt! No? And splat goes the ork... Enjoy!

Make Way Brothers Grimm!

Thanks goes to Damo for sending me this entertaining WoW (World of Warcraft) clip. Enjoy!



Clips like these just bring back good memories...

Phone Sex for Geeks

One hell of a funny video. I laughed like crazy over the one on the Dungeon Master. Really warped way of seeing D&D.

Phone Sex for Geeks

Whats With the Fortress?

To continue from my first posting, where I was explaining about the reason behind the nick. Now I move on to my blog's title. Doesn't it sound "Supermanish"? I view the fortress of solitude as a place where Superman went to when he needed to be alone to reflect, to discover about himself . I also see it as a sanctuary... a place where Superman can be totally open and himself. Without hiding behind a disguise of Clark Kent.

Of course I'm no Superman, but I find the concept of the Fortress ideal. And I think everyone needs a place that they can call their own personal Fortress of Solitude.

My Very First Posting

Hello guys and gals. I have now officially joined countless others in taking up web space on the Internet. Some of you may have seen/felt my reluctance at getting a blog started as I've given reasons like "a blog takes up too much time" or "I'm the sort of person that rather keeps to himself. Irregardless of the reasons i gave then... I find myself seated in front of my laptop now at 3.30am in the morning typing my first post. Maybe the tiredness has driven me mental, maybe I'm possessed...ok ok kidding about the possessed bit. But I am tired...wouldn't you be at 3.30am in the morning? On top of that I had a long Monday starting with a lecture at 8.30am. Thank goodness I stay near uni now. But I still have problems with dragging my feet out of bed in the mornings.

Tired people tend to talk cock more, as proven in army days as well as in police interrogations. So apologies to readers who find me ranting or going off tangent. I would like to say that a contributing factor to me starting a blog (apart from the tiredness factor), would be my friend Dom. He told me that a blog is for keeping people who care about you informed about your life. Although I answered him "that's what a phone is for", there is a certain convenience about mass posting. Also, in typing out my thoughts and feelings, I get to read and reflect on myself on a deeper level. Which is something that i actually avoid sometimes, especially if i know that it's bad...

Ju and Ben would recognise the nick "purple turtle" from a cocktail of similar name that we had at a chill out place. Told you guys I'd end up using it. I like the sound of it, it sounds cute. I also said it suits me in certain ways. For one, I like the colour purple. (though I'm still trying to come to terms with plucking up the courage to wear something purple) As for the turtle... certain friends of mine would happily say that it's cause I'm slow/pentium I/or just plain sua gu (mountain turtle). I see it more from a realisation of a part of me on how I (or my brain) dealt with bad events/situations/experiences when i was younger...due to my "exciting" early school life. In short, I've somehow repressed a lot of those memories that I can't remember them now, apart from a few key events that I still remember with clarity. In relation to a turtle, its like a turtle that ducks inside its shell to avoid danger or injury. That's how I feel my mind has been working. I think I've come a long way since then. True, sometimes i still find myself applying the turtle shell defence. But I've been opening up my mind to come to terms/deal with a lot of other bad stuff.

Ok, here's where i sign off. Tired as hell now and it's almost 4.30am. Got quite a day ahead of me plus D&D with the boys at UWA later at 5pm... Hopefully I won't find myself stranded late at night in one of the bus stations again. Will update soon I think.